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March 30, 2008
Another sunny afternoon
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March 6, 2008
Waterlily
I turn on the music in the car. FM 92.5 is always cheerfully noisy. John Mayer covers my silent tears. I do not know why I cry but a strong tide of emotion just roars in my heart, then flows out of my eyes.
In those moments when days blend with nights, I sink in the greyness and wish that I could stay there for a while but my tears are telling me that the line is clearer than ever no matter how diligently I have tried to avoid it. The tears are also a mourning, mourning about the closed door to my heart, once widely open.
I always believe that I was born out of water. Water calms me down in a very intimate way. So when you ask me:" Who are you? What do you want?" questions that we ask ourselves millions of times along the whole life journey, I suddenly realize that I am a waterlily and you are a cactus.
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March 4, 2008
New shoes, traffic and closet
I have been in my "new shoes" for 2 months. I often refer to any new change--- new job, new relationship, new house, new born etc to a pair of new shoes. No matter how beautiful they look like, it always takes time to get comfortable with. So my new shoes this time, basically my new job, have deprived me from having a normal life. I have returned to the basic layer of Maslow's pyramid-----If I have time to eat, sleep and take a bath, I am kind of happy. Yet the new shoes still hurt.
The new job also changes my routine. I no longer have the luxury to get up at 8am and read in the bus or stare at some good-looking men ( not too many though) or simply doze off. I am forced to be a morning bird, driving 1-2 hours to get to work, at the mercy of the traffic. And speaking of traffic, isn't that wonderful way to kill life? Sometimes I am stuck, not moving at all. Nowhere to escape and nowhere to turn back, like sometimes in life. However eventually I go through, I pass it, like sometimes in life too.
While I am accelerating one aspect of my life, I kind of put the rest in the closet: no time to update my blog or write back those caring friends who hope to read new postings; no time to create some pleasurable moments behind the camera; no time to read much except those related to work...what am I doing?
It is March, all I hope is to get out my new shoes, get out the traffic and get out the closet, to see Spring...
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