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July 22, 2007
和自己赛跑
这个夏天有些怪异。似乎要时刻准备着四季的衣服。然而今天艳阳高照,明媚异常.
他打来电话:"好吗?" " 不好." " 可天气很好,你应该出去跑步." 我一向不喜跑步. 对我而言跑步需要个目的,譬如打球；或者需要个对手,譬如竞技. 和自己赛跑对我没什么吸引力.他坚持:"去跑半个小时吧,对你减压有好处." " 半个小时? 我不行." " 你有两条腿,问什么不行?" 我沉默,我知道他在说什么.我们共同的一个朋友七年前出车祸双腿残疾,每当有人说:"我不能跑." 他总会直直地看着这个人说:"你有两条腿,为什么不能跑?"
最近压力很大.本来每日与八个女人共事，工作环境已属险恶。顶头上司怀着五个月的身孕另觅他职，新老板横竖跟我对不上眼。每日赐小鞋无数。我终于领教先祖们的教训：“欲加之罪，何患无辞？“ 偶尔和母亲汇报情况时提起办公室的政治斗争，明哲保身，趋炎附势之事屡见不鲜。母亲有些天真：“外国人也这样啊？“ 呵呵老妈“天下的乌鸦一般黑。“
我于是穿上跑鞋,戴上我的iPod出了门. 我突然间发现居然有很多人在运动.一对夫妇穿着溜冰鞋推着小孩从我身边滑过;迎面跑来的人向我点头微笑;耳边音乐的韵律让我觉得像在随着音乐奔跑. 我开始有些喜欢跑步了. 20分钟后我的腿开始沉重,几次我都有偃旗息鼓之心.然而每次我都对自己说:"再坚持一下到前面的小路." " 再坚持一下到下个路口." 我突然间明白其实和自己赛跑是最大的竞技.
当我大汗淋漓回到家, 我真的觉得心情晴朗了很多. 路总是要坚持走下去,即便有时看不到希望,即便有时障碍重重, 只要坚持, 总能达到终点. 我打电话给他:" 谢谢你, 我战胜了自己."
Posted by pengbo at 10:36 PM | Comments (1)
July 7, 2007
those moments
He is standing there on the emergency road. His car is a wreck. He looks hopeless and helpless. I drive him by but could not do anything because I am on the highway.
Don't we all have those moments in life that we are feeling hopeless and helpless, like him? Even others would love to help, they just can not. We just need to take a deep breath and hold on, do whatever we can do to survive the every second that tortures us.
I am sad that I could not do anything but let him be helpless.
That sucks. Really.
Posted by pengbo at 12:22 AM | Comments (0)