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May 8, 2005
Feeling life while waiting
I used to hate waiting. Waiting usually escalates my anxiety and gets me frustrated e.g. waiting in the traffic, waiting for companions who are late or waiting in line to get in a restaurant. I often say that there is no restaurant which is worth waiting for more than half an hour.
As I grow old..er, I have gradually changed my attitude. Not only because patience is taking control more often but also because I start to enjoy feeling life while waiting.
I still remember last week I was expecting a friend who was half an hour late. I in fact enjoyed my waiting while holding my favorite latte in a café. I watched people pass by. Just one second's encounter, I was able to make my initial judgement on what type of person this was in general, what kind of mood he/she appeared to be in and even what sort of taste this person showed in dressing! At times, some laughters from a bunch of young girls echoed in the air, spreading joy around; a couple's heated arguement was sent out to my ear; A man who smiled at his computer probably received a love letter...the city was so alive and vibrant...and I felt it while waiting...
In the case of waiting in a traffic, I have stopped being annoyed. Instead, I often watch the behavior of other drivers, or the model/color of other cars, I turn on my favorite music or I take this time to let my thoughts fly: the to-do-list after work; the topics I will cover in my blog, the photographs that i will shoot differently...I will allow some other cars to cut me in because I know it won't make a difference of more than two seconds for us! For these kind of things that are not under my control, I would just relax and enjoy myself while waiting!
When it comes to waiting for a lover, I would say waiting is rather beautiful. Waiting prolongs and even reinforces the desire. While waiting, you might just rehearse everything what would happen: the embracing arms, the tender but never-tiring kisses, the long gaze into your eyes and the breezy whispers that stir your heart...the process of waiting sometimes is even more beautiful than when you actually get all these...
There actually is so much to feel while waiting...e.g.feel the imaginary satisfaction that you will bring your friends while waiting for them to come over for dinner; feel the self struggling and even self reflection while waiting for some news in life, OR, feel the hopeless hope from some police about a lost camera...
Posted by pengbo at May 8, 2005 11:45 PM